Adele details overcoming her mental health battles
Adele has detailed her battles with anxiety and depression and how she was left bedbound and watching The Sopranos at her lowest point after her divorce came to light.
The Easy On Me singer, 33, spoke to Rolling Stone about her mental health struggles amid her split from Simon Konecki and how her body and mind overhaul came when gluten intolerance contributed to her depression.
After detailing her mournful time of battling to get out of bed, during which she simply lay watching Sopranos despite knowing she ‘needed to stay busy’, she spoke of her overhaul saying: ‘Anything that could soothe my anxiety, I threw myself in headfirst. [I traveled] anywhere where there’s meant to be brilliant energy.’
As well as travel, Adele stopped drinking for six months to alleviate ‘hangxiety’ – a term given for the negative feelings to one’s mental health in the wake of drinking.
Tough: Adele has detailed her battles with anxiety and depression and how she was left bedbound and watching The Sopranos at her lowest point
Adele’s split from Simon, who she wed in 2011 and with whom she shares son Angelo, nine, came to light on Good Friday 2019 and it was then she began battling her woes.
She explained that she struggled with the intensity of the reveal and wound up spending increasing time alone due to joint custody – leading to her nights alone without Angelo in the house, watching The Sopranos and dealing with ‘this tsunami of emotions’ that was hitting her.
Adele explained that when she celebrated her 31st birthday in May 2019 with friends, she was feeling positive – yet the next day things hit her harder.
She said: ‘I remember going upstairs, and doing my face, and getting into bed. I felt quite hopeful. It was the first time I felt I’d had a really nice evening and I was OK being in the house and going to bed on my own…
‘I was not excited, but I was looking forward to the next day.’
It was the next day however that she wound up reclusive in bed, watching The Sopranos instead of keeping busy as she knew she should.
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She went on: ‘I was like, ‘This is going to be really f**king up-and-down” before which she launched her determined drive to overcome her battles.
‘Anything that could soothe my anxiety, I threw myself in headfirst. I anywhere where there’s meant to be brilliant energy’.
She revealed she went to Jamaica, Greece, and a desert in Arizona, before also finding out she was allergic to most forms of gluten, which she discovered can cause depression as a side effect to the sensitivity.
Adele said: ‘So, I was like, ‘Oh, great. Thanks, guys. Could have had a really fun twenties.’
The star has made headlines in recent months for her dramatic body transformation, and did admit in her interview she became ‘addicted to the gym’.
She explained: ‘If I can transform my strength and my body like this, surely I can do it to my emotions and to my brain and to my inner well-being.’
‘That was what drove me. It just coincided with all of the emotional work that I was doing with myself as a visual for it, basically.’
She also shared that when the news of her divorce broke, a close friend flew from London to LA to be by her side and make sure she did not feel alone as the news spread.
Gracing the cover of Rolling Stone, the singer confessed she had come so far from the person she was before she tied the knot to Simon that she made the difficult decision to walk away from their marriage.
Adele, who recently went public with her new romance with Rich Paul, added that her single life while living in Los Angeles lasted little more than ‘five seconds,’ after her friends’ failed attempts to set her up on blind dates.
Adele said: ‘I didn’t really know myself.’ I thought I did. I don’t know if it was because my Saturn return or if it was because I was well and truly sort of heading into my thirties, but I just didn’t like who I was. I didn’t really know myself. I thought I did. But I just didn’t like who I was.’
Reflecting on the end of their marriage, she added: ‘It made me really sad. Then having so many people that I don’t know, know that I didn’t make that work… it f*****g devastated me. I was embarrassed. No one made me feel embarrassed, but you feel like you didn’t do a good job.’
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The mother-of-one also shared that she was initially ‘bewildered’ by her fans’ response to her divorce, with many expressing excitement over the fact the split would likely inspire a new album.
‘During something like that, that kind of significant thing to happen in life, your mind sort of goes to those places: ”Why don’t they like me? Why would they write that if they’ve followed me for 10 years?”’ Adele said.
She added: ‘But in reality, that’s not their responsibility. In reality, their responsibility as a fan is to want a good record and to hope I deliver. So I took it with a pinch of salt, and it was fine.’
Adele also explained her decision to delay the release of her much-anticipated album 30 by more than a year, after penning songs as an emotional reaction to her split from Simon.
She added: ‘If it wasn’t coming out now, I think I probably would never put it out.’
‘I know I would’ve changed my mind and been like, ‘It’s moved on. Let’s start the next album.’ And I couldn’t do that to this album. I feel like it deserves to come out.’
Adele has also moved on, embarking on a new romance with American sports agent Rich Paul, at 39 six years her senior and hugely successful in his own right through his representation of numerous prominent NBA players.
In her interview, Adele also clarified that despite their split, Simon ‘was a great husband’ and ‘is still one of her best friends’.
But the relationship appears to have caught the singer by surprise, with Adele freely admitting her superstar status made it difficult to find someone who wasn’t instantly intimidated – a subject she explores in new song Oh My God.
‘I lasted five seconds [dating in Los Angeles],’ she joked, admitting her close friends even attempted to set her up on a blind date.
‘You can’t set me up on a f**king blind date! I’m like, ‘How’s that going to work?’ There’ll be paparazzi outside and someone will call [gossip site] DeuxMoi, or whatever it’s f**king called! It ain’t happening.’
Adele has found a new home for herself and son Angelo in Los Angeles, purchasing a Beverly Hills mansion for a reported $9.5million in 2016, a far cry from her humble beginnings in working class Tottenham, north London.
All over: The singer confessed she had become so far from the person she was before marrying ex-husband Simon and made the difficult decision to walk away from their marriage (pictured in 2013)
The singer has since invested more than $30million into American real estate, and her relocation to the US has inevitably resulted in the development of close friendships with other high profile stars – notably her neighbours, Oscar winner Jennifer Lawrence and TV personality Nicole Richie.
She explained: ‘They humanized me because I had avoided talking to anyone that was ever famous in any capacity, because I was like, ‘Well, I’m not famous.’ I’m very British like that.
‘We never spoke about work, which was amazing, because most of the time when I catch up with someone, they want to know all about my work, and I’m like, ‘I don’t want to talk about that. Can we talk about something else? I’m knackered.”
With her new album set for release in little more than a week, Adele admits it helped her find closure with her estranged father Mark Evans before his death.
Evans, who separated from the singer’s mother when she was three years old, passed away aged 57 in May after battling bowel cancer.
Difficulties: Adele freely admitting her superstar status made it difficult to find someone who wasn’t instantly intimidated by her enormous fame
But she admits she resolved her differences with her father after years of feeling unloved, and made sure he was the first person to hear her latest collection of songs.
‘I don’t think I understood the deepness of how I felt about him until we spoke,’ she said.
While anticipation builds around her new music, Adele insists she will not be touring the world as she did for her third album, 25, as a consequence of ongoing COVID restrictions.
‘It’s too unpredictable, with all the rules and stuff,’ she said. ‘I don’t want anyone coming to my show scared. And I don’t want to get COVID, either.’
Last month, Adele confirmed her album’s release date and title alongside a lengthy note in which she explained that she finally felt ready to release her music.
She wrote: ‘I was certainly nowhere to near where I’d hoped to be when I first started it nearly 3 years ago.
‘Quite the opposite actually. I rely on routine and consistency to feel safe, I always have. And yet there I was knowingly – willingly even, throwing myself into a maze of absolute mess and inner turmoil!
‘I’ve learned a lot of blistering home truths about myself along the way. I’ve shed many layers but also wrapped myself in new ones.
‘Discovered genuinely useful and wholesome materials to lead with, and I felt like I’ve finally found my feeling again. I’d go as far to say that I’ve never felt this peaceful in my life.’
Adele told how she sought support from the album writing process, which left her ‘sobbing relentlessly’.
She wrote: ‘And so, I’m ready to finally put this album out. It was my ride or die throughout the most turbulent period of my life. When I was writing it, it was my friend who came over with a bottle of wine and a takeaway to cheer me up.
Adeleville: The singer has since invested more than $30million into American real estate, and her relocation to the US has inevitably resulted in the development of close friendships with her high-profile neighbours
‘My wise friend who always gives the best advice. Not to forget the one who’s wild and says ‘It’s your Saturn babes f**k it, you only live once’.
‘The friend who’d stay up all night and just hold my while I’d sob relentlessly not knowing why. The get up and go friend who would pick me up and take me out somewhere I said I didn’t want to go but just wanted to get me out the house for some vitamin D.
‘That friend who snuck in and left a magazine with a face mask and some bath salts to make me feel loved while inadvertently reminding me not only what month it actually was but that I should probably exercise some self care.
‘And then that friend who no matter what, checked in on me even thought I’d stopped checking in with them because I’d become so consumed by my own grief.
‘I’ve painstakingly rebuilt my house and my heart since then and this album narrates it. Home is where the heart is x’.
The ’30’ title falls in line with Adele’s preferred way of naming her albums, with all three of her studio albums named after her age.
Her debut album 19 was released in 2008, followed by 21 in 2011 and 25 in 2015.
As Adele has followed the previous pattern, the 30 album has plenty of inspiration, having been the age she separated from ex-husband Simon.
Tragic: Adele admits her new album helped her find closure with her estranged father Mark Evans before his death to bowel cancer at the age of 57